Crazy love chapter 1

Holy cow. So its been a while since I put this book down "crazy love" and I just decided to start over from the beginning and devote myself to reading what this book has to say and do my best to fully understand how much God loves me. Which after reading this some more I am coming to the conclusion that I will never understand it fully but I'm learning a little more about how much He does love me. So in chapter one the author Francis Chan talks about just taking a look and marevelling at Gods magnificant creation. He talked a lot about the stars and the galaxies. If you want to watch a video he has posted go to the website (www.crazylovebook.com) and watch the awe factor video. After I watched this video I was basically in awe of just how much God has created and just how amazing it really is. I kept reading as the author explained things that God has created like the caterpillar and a spider and the human heart, and I was actually dumbfounded. When I talk about God I try to avoid saying cliche things and try to make it more from the heart. But when I look back at what I am trying to explain is that God is simple at the same time completely complicating. He is simple in that all He wants is for us to want a relationship with Him and follow his commands; but He is complicated in the way that I still cannot wrap my head around the idea of the trinity. (but that's another blog in itself that I don't even want to try to unfold.) The next video is one that I HIGHLY recommend you going to watch. It's on the same website as the last and it call just stop and think. ( I also put it on my twitter page and Facebook) And when I watched this video my heart was opened and my world was wrecked in awe of just how much God loves me. Francis Chan explains it in a way that is so simple that it's insane to even think about. God sent his son Jesus to die for me on a cross for my sins. And yes I'm sure whether you're a Christian or not you've heard that verse at some point on your life, whether it was on a billboard or one a cookout cup or on the bottom of a forever21 shopping bag. But if you sit back and think about it that God sent the one person who He loves the most to die a cruel death on a cross for something he didn't do. He died for things that I did. Terrible things that I do daily. But God took that all away because he loves me that much. Francis Chan said to think about the one person you love the most and think about them dying on a cross and realize that pain... God felt that pain, but he did it so that he could have a personal relationship with you and me. And that alone is enough to bring anyone to tears. Ya know, I have never in 21 almost 22 years now, doubted that God loved me. But until tonight I don't know if I realized just how much. And it's only the first chapter of this book. I think the coolest part of God loving me is that He doesn't demand a relationship from me... But he begs for me to want him the way he wants me. The bible says we are his bride, but God doesn't make us do anything. He wants us to want him and I think that's so cool of him; because honestly God could make us be in a relationship with him because of what he did for us. But he doesn't. He wants a real and tangible relationship with us that is a two way street. If he made us be in this relationship it would be one way. But God doesn't want that. And neither do I. I love being able to have a two way relationship with a God who loves me this much. This whole thing may sound crazy and silly because it's literally coming out of my head with no thought at all. But I really was wrecked by this first chapter. And in awe of a God who created everything on earth but still wants a relationship with a silly and sinful person like me. Go get this book. You will not be disappointed. And if you do let me know!!! I want to hear what you think! Kelsey Zephaniah 3:17